Danruns50

I really have to remind myself that what I'm doing is fundamentally positive. I feel self conscious because I am pushing this out to everyone I know with this blog and the website and everything... like I'm being self-indulgent. I know that it is to a degree and that people could, and probably will perceive it this way. Also the "you're crazy" part kind of bugs me. Maybe its because people have been telling me I'm crazy my whole life. The truth is there is something that really attracts me to this kind of a challenge. When I first heard about ultra-marathons I never thought in a million years that I would actually even begin to attempt one. I reacted to the idea of running so far as super human. And now I know its very attainable (at least I know that running 44 miles in 2 days is attainable to me). So I guess with all of the head-chatter that's going on inside me I've discovered a new irony... Trying to be super-human is a very human thing to do. And I have yet to become "superman". I'm still carrying around all of the hang-ups that I had before. Funny thing is that I could have told you that this would have been the case before I even started. So that begs the question, "why even make the attempt?" And I think the answer is very simple but not totally mind blowing. Its just making me a little bit better at being me.