Tuesday, August 17, 2010

The Hero and the Idiot...

So I went to Human Resources and to my boss today and told them that I was raising funds for Congo. I also sent the website link to my design teams. Its hilarious in a way. I always do this to myself. I put myself out there in front of everyone and really jack up the pressure to perform. If I fail, I fail in front of everyone (like the idiot). If I succeed???... Am I the hero then? I don't know. Maybe in some ways. I'm pretty much going "no guts no glory" on this and there is a very real possibility that I could crash and burn. What if I get hurt or sick or something? I always get self-conscious too. The real torture is that whenever I begin to talk to anyone about it the response usually has that, "well what did you expect?" kind of tone. This all amounts to a bunch of psycho-dribble which I can excel at. Which brings me full circle... And I will quote Rod from my Facebook page... "Run it Dan! Just run it!" Off to bed now.

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