Danruns50

I'm feeling much better today. Thank God for rest days! I was on the train, coming home from work when I started thinking about all of this running and why I decided to do it. I read this article again and I almost busted out crying right on the train - http://www.nytimes.com/2010/01/31/opinion/31kristof.html. I have no idea why I am having all of these emotions now when I never really had them before in my life about any of this stuff. Its probably because I'm a father now and I can't even begin to understand what would make people do such horrific things to women and little girls. I can't stomach it. Maybe I'm naive in thinking I could help. The images of the women and children are, like so many other things in the world, just more things to shut off to. I remember when I first moved to the New York City area and people would ask me for change. I'd always give them some. Then one day I realized I was broke. Now when people ask me for money I walk by. You can't save the world. Then I think of Stanley dying in March and how we didn't see much of each other in the past few years and how the last thing he said to me was on a message he left on my phone. He'd heard I had a son. I guess I just ahve sad stuff in my head.